The Bureau turned its back on its own traditions of floating above partisan politics in the pursuit of justice.
I’ll arise before the dawn…the stillness and quiet permeates my surroundings. Beginning again the cycle that has repeated for more years than I care to remember.
Something different will make itself known about this day. Unsettling and uncomfortable.Nevertheless, the routine will fall into play as I begin the tasks that lie ahead. There will be a bit of preoccupation. Ever present and incomplete.
I will find myself surrounded by triggers that lead to inadequacies and shortcomings. I was better in recent years. But I fear that may be lost now. The saddest part is I’m not sure why….
This quiet All Hallow’s Eve got me to thinking….
I’ve lived a life of anticipation and expectation…for about as long as I can remember. The results have occasionally been better than expected. Unfortunately, they’re more often disappointing.
I would do well to adopt a philosophy of ‘come what may’. That’s not to say no planning and preparation would be involved. I need to learn to keep anxiety in check. We’ll see how that goes. It won’t be easy for someone who’s quite adept at playing out scenarios in advance. Part of that comes from a track record fine tuned over the years….
It’s time to welcome calm and serenity back into my life. At least when it’s feasible. With so much out there demanding our attention, it’s no easy task. But, I think I’ll take advantage of the eve of “fall back” as a new start.
Wish me luck!